One year after the fire at Campus walk, families of victims wish they could know the people Ryan, Beth, Rachel and Donna would grow up to be.
The woman who took that future away will spend her future behind barbed wire.
WFMY News2's Rosemary Plybon talked exclusively with Janet Danahey about her life in prison and how she wants to make amends for what she's done.
Janet wakes up early every morning and goes to a horticulture class. I
"I spend the day in class and we go to the green house, we propagate flowers, watch videos about different areas of the world," Janet says.
They are places Janet dreams about from a quiet courtyard.
"The grounds that you are allowed to walk on and meet people and get to know people."
But images of friends and flowers fade at the sight of the fences.
"Coming here and I had to start again, how you were one person one minute and the next minute you're a completely different one."
Life in prison, Janet says is about reflection and re-invention.
"To be able to connect, I don't know why I am here as far as my life took this turn, why I am stupid enough for this life to take that turn but I am here for a reason and I know that this is part of my journey. I think that is a step in the right direction to getting closer to the families, to knowing who I killed "
Ryan Bek, Beth Harris, Rachel and Donna Llewellyn, lives lost in a fire Janet set. She calls them her victims, and talks about honoring their memories.
"One of them [Beth] was in a choral society and she loved to sing so I thought I want to start a choral group."
"Ryan Beck was interested in battered women, their rights, and protecting them and this place is a wonderful place, I think that he would have walked in here and said gosh look at all this work I have to do."
"And my two sisters [Rachel and Donna], they were also involved with a lot of things at their school and I would like to be involved here with the Shaw University program."
Janet hasn't contacted their families wanting to spare them more pain, but hopes one day they will come to her.
"I wish that we could all just get into a room actually, no one else there just the families and just let them vent, let them yell at me, do whatever they had to, just so we could move past that and start growing together because we are inexplicably sown together now."
Janet still smiles, even laughs, things she knows may be hard for those on the outside to understand.
"I believe that I am here to learn, even if I never leave this place I have certain things people don't have and that's an intrinsic understanding of the way people work and the importance of life itself."
I asked her, was there some part of her that thinks she would leave one day?
"No, not really. To me its not even an option in the future, I believe that society makes good choices with what it decides and I am in the bottom of this pool, of the human pool, and I have, should have no opinion to whether its right if I am here or not. Just take it one day at a time is what I tell myself."
Janet Danahey is serving life in prison without the possibility of parole.
She says she lives with the pain of what she did every day, in everything she does.
And she hopes that the consequences of her actions can serve as a lesson for others.